Friday, April 25, 2008

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i've been having a recurrent dream of this same girl and the thing is she is so damn hot. might've seen her somewhere on tv or something i suppose but still. i think dreams have a funny way of messing you up.
in my dreams, she's workin in the same office. and i think that's from my self-acknowledged opinion that office wear is the hottest clothes a girl can be in. i'm just gonna list down stuff i like bout her. first off, she has really good taste in underwear and i've leave the details of how i know that outta this. she has the mildest flirt techniques and it honestly borders cheesy so much that i find her so astoundingly cute when she even tries. she uses blue lipstick (go figure) and has the brightest, hazel eyes which catches you by surprise everytime it lights up. her laughter is tinkling and pleasant through and through. she's about 160 in height, but has the hottest body ever. her legs, well it'll kill you. she wears a simple pair of spectacles that hides nothing of her lovely features. she's fair and she smells so.. damn... good. she has a set of smallish, pearly whites. she ties her brown hair (dyed) up in a pony tail but still manages to look like a million bucks.
the last thing i did before i unfortunately woke up, was walk up to her in the office, pull her close and whisper: i am gonna woo you.
and to that, her eyes lighted up and her smile stopped my arbitrary heart beat.
if i meet her in real life, i think i'd probably do the same again, cuz perfection is only the stuff of dreams. and there she is.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

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fools like me aren't meant to play the game of love. because letting go is too hard.
i lost my ring today. its a ring that has lost its meaning months ago. maybe even before that. i was pretty sure i wore it out of habit, cuz without it my finger feels.. well it feels naked. i'm not too sure anymore; there was this sense of loss in me not unlike the one i felt that day she left me. the feeling was diminished, but it definitely was there. its the same damned feeling.
when will it stop haunting me?
i don't think i love you anymore. i don't feel that i love you anymore. i know that i can't love you anymore. so why can't i forget you?
i finally sewn myself up together. i finally found a place i could go without you. i finally moved on. so why does it feel like i left a part of me behind?
i will not hurt anymore.
not for you. i'm sorry.