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well holy god damned. apparently the last time i blogged was april. didn't really intend to again, but oh what the heck. i felt like typing. must be all the administrative work. i swear i'm turning into some clerk. so that aside, i caught blood diamond. politics and action aside, i was really overwhelmed by the human soul.
i mean seriously, so yeah, DiCaprio died, boo-hoo. but honestly, i'd define it a happy death. think about it, a man's been living in hell for his entire life, never done an honest day's work, mom raped, dad decapitated, not much integrity to speak of, spilled blood of innocent, and emotion ain't much of a word. you make a person go through all of that, and he ain't much of a person no more. but for him, at the end of it all, he made a friend, he saved a family, and he found love. i'd say he hasn't had a girl cried for him for god knows how long. he's made hundreds cry BECAUSE of him that's for sure. it was a good death. humans claim emselves masters of the universe. they seek power, ostentatious lives, knowledge, lust. but yet, many are hardly masters of emselves. we have lost touch with ourselves. in our quest to be everything we can and cannot be, we often fail to see what we had all along. the human soul is our greatest strength, bcuz it represents purpose. it represents a life, and the will that created it. i ain't speakin of god, or any other divinity. i'm speakin of life in its purest form. the Will. without purpose, there is no life to speak of.
human emotions are way too complicated. we stay mortals not only bcuz we die, but cuz most of us are slaves to our emotions. we live for em, we die for em. its innate. mortals are chained down to this burden, and no matter how much emotions give us hell, we are thankful. its bcuz we feel, that we truly live. crazy? damn right it is.